Why is it always me that gets my heart broken? I feel like there is something wrong with me that guys seem to discover after dating me for a long period of time. Instance #1: Scott and I dated for 2.5 years and gradually I think we grew apart. But it wasn't me doing the dumping, it was me on the other end getting my heart broken. I guess in this situation I saw it coming, as like I said before, we were growing apart and I just don't think it was meant to be. Instance #2: Dan and I have been dating for a year and 2 months as of the 13th of July and about a week and a half ago Dan decided he needed to go on a break from 'us'. He claims that he knows I am "the one" but needs to find that feeling again, that I am "the one" as he has lost it temporarily. How come it's never me, it's always them and yet I'm the one sitting here with a broken heart AGAIN. Can you honestly tell me that in a year you wouldn't know whether you want to be in a serious relationship or not? (And Dan if you read this, it is nothing against you, I just don't understand. It's plain and simple, I just don't understand.) We talked about this so called "break" we are going on and Dan feels that because he has to work so often to pay for school and because he is having a busy time at home, he feels that us taking this break will give him time to sort everything out and be able to find that feeling again. BUT when you are having troubles in your life, do you run away from the ones you love? Or do you run to them for a shoulder to cry on or a helping hand? Can anyone else see where I am coming from here? Or is there something wrong with me and I just don't see it and am totally missing something that is right in front of my face?
So this is my farewell messages for a weeks here as I am off to England tomorrow afternoon! I will be going to see my family and friends over there and relaxing in the hot sun. YES, hot sun in England, I know it sounds like a oxy-moron, but my Aunt assures me it has been like Mexico hot there! I have a list of everyone that would like something brought back., but this is definitely your last chance to ask for anything if you would like it. So here I go everyone, 10,000 miles away and not a care in the world. See you all when I get back, luv ya! Adios =)
